HEARTFELT MUSINGS ON LIFE, LOVE, GOD, & MOTHERHOOD

Sing me a song oh Soul of mine…

13.01.14

Have you ever had that feeling that you’re almost on the right track… that you’re close to doing the ‘thing’ you were put here to do… but you’re not quite there yet?

That’s how I’ve been feeling for years. Like a flower that’s almost open, or a fruit that’s just about ripe… but not quite.

I’ve loved my work of teaching Yoga, but have always had a sense that it was a stepping stone on the way somewhere else… somewhere juicier, deeper, more satisfying, more direct. Centred less in the hamstrings and more at the very heart of things.

What I’ve come to realise over the last 4 weeks, through a process of guided inquiry and professional coaching, is that uncovering, honing, and living my Soul’s deepest desires, gifts, and purpose, is not even so much about me as it is about you.

What I’m starting to see is that we owe it to each other, to take a deep dive inside, and find out what we love. What makes you shine? What makes you feel light? What could you talk about for hours without getting bored or tired? What connects you with your heart? Who inspires you and why?

These questions are the breadcrumbs on the trail to joy and meaning, and we owe it to each other to ask them of ourselves (and each other), and then start living the answers as soon as we can. It just about blows my mind to imagine a world where we’re all doing that, with this extraordinary planet as the playing field.

It also breaks my heart to see how far off track so many of us have got. How lost we’ve become in our battles for survival that we hardly know where to begin to find our hearts and our joy again.

But the other thing I am discovering, which is good news for all of us, is that what I love, and what I’m good at, and what excites me is exactly the same as it’s always been. My gifts were always there, under my nose, the treasure in my own backyard all along. So much so that they’ve been partially overlooked, like the nose you can’t see because it’s attached to your face. I’m guessing that if it’s like that for me then it might be like that for you too.

It’s taken a process and a skilful ‘other’ to both mirror and amplify the secrets my Soul was dying to speak. That and a timing that can only be described as divine, and proof that the Soul so wants to be heard that it will do whatever it takes to get our attention.

Some signs that you might not be listening: feelings of lethargy, depression, depletion, fatigue, frustration, irritation, anxiety, restlessness; a feeling of being stuck, powerless, pissed off, uninspired, unmotivated; unusual or profound dreams that feel like they’re trying to tell you something; an illness, injury, financial strain; a decrease in efficiency, success, or income… as though things just aren’t working like they used to.

What can you do about it?

1. Stop! Or at least pause more often to reflect. Could you go away for a weekend? Ideally somewhere quiet where you can be in nature. Could you have a silent day? Could you set aside some time to take a good long look?

2. Write/Journal. Let your Soul have it’s say uncensored.writing river 2

3. Meditate. Be Still. Be Silent. Relax with the not-knowing and lack of clarity even as you start to dig.

4. Ask the right questions of yourself. Some of these are mentioned above.

5. Ask 3-5 trusted friends or family who know you well and who are willing to be honest with you, 1. What do they see as your greatest strengths, talents, gifts, or best qualities? What do they think you’d be really good at if money wasn’t an issue? Then, 2. What do they see as your weaknesses, blindspots, limiting or destructive qualities… the things they see you do or say that hinder your ability to shine your light? TAKE NOTICE!

6. Enlist the skilled help of a coach or counselor to work with you. I can highly recommend Lisa Fitzpatrick www.lisafitzpatrick.com.au, who I am working with currently, and who specialises in ‘unveiling divine feminine purpose’.

7. Be patient with the process but begin it NOW. Commit to doing what it takes to make yourself happy – there’s nobody else who can do that but you.

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”      ~ Goethe

Om Namo Narayani!