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Surrender… let go and trust

18.08.13

I’ve been waiting for a lightning bolt, a revelation, some resolution at least in some area of questioning, about which I could write my next blog.

In its absence I write anyway, while making friends with all these unanswerable questions.

I used to think that when my intuition gets sharp enough I will always know what to do, the ‘right’ course of action in any possible moment (underneath that in very small print read: and avoid ever having to make any painful mistakes). While this is partly true – Yoga is often defined as ‘skillfulness in action’, for its ability to un-cloud buddhi, our intuitive faculty, moving us more often from our innate wisdom, and less from rational but limited mind.

Sometimes though, we have to just live and learn. It’s called ‘The Mystery’ for a very good reason.

The mind, by nature, seeks resolution. It’s very uncomfortable with not knowing. It would rather believe in a lie than acknowledge how insecure it is.

The Soul, the Heart, on the other hand, doesn’t need to know. Its nature is to abide. It’s happy just to hang. It has no reputation to protect or agenda to fulfill.

My teacher Amma once said to me, “Best is… [as in the best thing to do] Lucy, you keep your book open… you let Divine write”. In a nutshell: don’t worry. Whatever is supposed to happen, will happen, what’s not, will not – simple as that.

I come back to that advice again and again, and see that it pretty much nails every question, every concern I could possibly have about anything at all, ever. It asks of me just three things: Let Go. Surrender. Trust.

“Be ground. Be crumbled. So wildflowers will come up where you are…” Rumi

The most beautiful thing about surrender, is that it always happens NOW – amidst the confusion, amidst the pain, amidst the fear. And with it comes immediate relief. Release. The situation may not instantly resolve itself – most likely it will not, but the gloves will come off. We can give up the fight. In this battle of wills, mine vs Divine, it’s always better to concede.

The result is Peace.

I leave you with one of my favourite quotes from South Indian sage Sri Ramana Maharishi:

Place your burden at the feet of theprostration Lord of the Universe,
Who accomplishes everything.
Remain always steadfast in the heart, in the Transcendental Absolute.
God knows the past, present and future.
He will determine the future for you and accomplish the work.
What is to be done will be done at the proper time.
Don’t worry!
Abide in the heart and surrender your acts to the Divine.

Om Namo Narayani!